Carrie's letter.

Sean

I need some advice. I am addicted to the "honeymoon" part of a relationship. I love the first three to six months, but after times goes on, we usually let our true selves show and I find myself looking for a way out.

That is, until I met the guy I am currently getting to know. We have been on four dates, no sex (close though..), and I am feeling like I can be myself for the first time. It scares me though to know that we skipped the giddy honeymoon part and are just real. I find myself thinking about him all of the time. He knows me better than most people I've dated for months.

I don't feel the need to run, but I don't know what to do here. This is new ground and I am scared that if I develop feelings for him, I'll get hurt eventually.

Carrie

Karma's a bitch Carrie. I know you feel fear for getting hurt because of things you've done in past relationships, but it doesn't mean it will happen to you. This guy seems like a good guy, from what you said. It's good to find people that can see through the curtain of BS that many of us often put up to hide our imperfections. Being "real", as you put it, can be a scary experience because it leaves open and vulnerable to emotional pain, should it happen..but if we went through our lives afraid of everything that would hurt us, we'd never get out of bed.

Enjoy getting to know someone that can be open and honest with who they are around you.

I hope someday you can wake up with your head on his chest as he draws lines across your back with his fingertips. The sun will be squeezing itself past the curtains, he will sigh and kiss your head, and you will know that there is no plan for the day, but you want him to be a part of it.

That's real..and wonderful.

Sean


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