These dreams..

So, for years, I've had this reoccurring dream:

It starts with me in a small town during some sort of celebration. I am looking for some people I know (I don't know who) and can't find them, so I camp out by a pond with a bunch of other people. When I wake up, the celebration (it's changed.. sometimes a parade, sometimes a town "crazy days" thing) has begun and I am all alone. I walk into a building by the pond and wash up, then on my way out, I hear the most horrifying sound. The ground shakes and this steely screech fills the surrounding area. As I look up into the sky, I see jet planes, many of them, on fire and crashing to the ground. One always comes right toward me and slams into the ground as I run from the giant flaming chunk of metal. It tears up the dirt ground right behind me, but I jump out of the way just in time. I am alright and I check, but no one is on the planes...but no one is left in the town either. They're all gone.

I've researched the "crashing plane" part of my dreams over and over again and it seems as if I have some self-doubt toward reaching my goals (whatever they may be), but after having the dream again last night, I decided to research the rest. Here is what I discovered:

(Twice in the dream) Being alone- It's a feeling of rejection. Perhaps that I've been misunderstood.

Camping out- I am in need of a long break. Also indicates a need to return to a simpler life.

Town (busy..activities)- Suggests I am a sociable person.

Waking up- I need to wake up and realize something.

Town (empty)- Suggests I am isolating myself from others.

Celebration- Symbolizes freedom and emotional release.

Explosion (the fireball plane crash)- Means my subconscious is trying to get my attention.

Running (away from the exploding plane crash)- I am not facing or confronting something.

Danger (escaping from it)- Signifies that I will rise to a high position in by business and social circles.

So what does it all mean when I put it together?

I feel I've been misunderstood somehow with work or my social life and I deep down feel I need a break from things. By doing that, I'll be closer to some sort of freedom or emotional release.

I need to wake up, however and realize that I have some sort of self-doubt toward reaching my life goals and also realize that I am not facing those goals. My subconscious is trying to tell me that I need to do this to further myself in life.

Wow. Heavy. I think it's right.